My kids have been at sleep away camp for three weeks. This is the first time they have been away from me in like, forever. I have my kids 99% of the time. As a single mom, doing this all on my own, you would think I would revel in the time alone. My "alone time" bucket list would be long. Things would be crossed off. I'd go out at night. Relax. Eat out. Spend time doing things I wanted to do without having to answer to anyone. It didn't happen like that. The first week they were away, I cried. Like a lot. I missed them so much. You have to know me, I'm not a controlling mother. I let my kids make choices for themselves and let them deal with any ramifications of said choices. They're good kids and have pretty good heads on their shoulders for almost 14 year olds.
After the first week was over, I wiped the tears away and started to enjoy my time alone. Doesn't make me miss them any less but I don't cry thinking about them. I know they are having a great time and soon, they'll be back in the roost. I started my "alone time" bucket list and have crossed off quite a bit. I started running again, met friends at the drop of a hat, went golfing and started to take care of me. I think I speak for a lot us on this but being a single parent, we forget to take of ourselves. We mean to, but we don't. Frankly, we don't have time. Our lists are never ending. Making mental note of this time alone.
I got a taste of being without the kids under my feet. My house is clean. My dishes are put away. Less grocery shopping. More time to myself. Having said that, I miss having a messy house. I miss the dishes in the sink. I miss endless grocery shopping. And I miss them. Miss them more than I can tell you. Give me a week. I'll be writing another post with a countdown to summer camp next year.
What do you do your alone time when your kids are away? Do you have your own bucket list?
Hugs to you.